Thoughts on a snowy evening..

Often it is difficult to live with other people. Boy do I know that it must be impossible to live with me. But at least I have the common courtesy not to interrupt my roommate's nap - instead I just leave the room and leave him to his own privacy. I suppose it is a cultural thing - a hispanic tendency to be polite and leave people to their own peace. Because he does not seem to share the same values. Instead he just insists on sitting on the room and rustling with every thing he possibly owns... And I know that it must be difficult for him to live with a roommate with awful allergies, but frankly I try to cough as quietly as possible and just keep myself quite.. Whatever... There has never been a time where I've just wanted complete isolation from other people - namely him.

Springfest

So today is Springfest here at Allegheny College - a whole day where people attempt to get as drunk, high and drugged up as they possibly can. And here I am settled into a nest at the top of the library watching people stumble by at 3:20pm. It is a bit sad to think that these are representatives of our future. But then again the vast majority of them are responsible enough not to hurt themselves and others. Last night was my second night out of my room to allow my roommate to have his boyfriend over. I always wonder if my feelings towards allowing such things is because of how I feel about the relationship or due to my own mixed feelings on my singleness. But I guess I cannot blame others for my own misfortune and unattractiveness. But I am who I am and I will not change for any person. If gay guys don't like a strong willed, political and feminist boyfriend then it sucks for them because I will not sacrifice my core values for another's convenience. And I guess that scares a lot of guys of - since I force them to think about issues that they otherwise couldn't care less about. But I don't want a guy afraid of confrontation, a challenge, a struggle... I want one that will stand up for what he believes in, who will stand besides me in life as a true partner.
But I guess those guys only exist in fairytales... Alas I wish I lived in that fairytale.

Remembering the messages...

So yesterday my school went on lock-down because an individual ran away from the cops who wished to serve him a warrant. I could really think nothing of it - he is entitled to his freedom as long as he doesn't kill anyone. But it sent the school into a panic. And it was then that I realized how true it was that people have been taught so well not to care about others. All of my peers just concerned themselves with their own safety (which I presume is the logical idea) and disregarded the all the possibilities. I was shocked by what I heard coming from people's mouths during this time - from people overreacting to people being willing to sacrifice others for their own safety. My Facebook page was filled with people freaking out over nothing and adding their own little anecdotes to the main event.
And I will admit that I was a little taken aback by the event, but not really concerned with my own safety as I can take care of myself. But rather I was heavily concerned with the well-being of my friends and classmates stuck in other buildings and possibly in harms way.
Now it is the next day and so far everyone is fine. The day has gone by normally and all there that has happened is an increase in gossip and an unsavory taste left in my mouth by the actions of my peers.
-Ehahlil.

Re-birth!

Starting to reblog again!
Not much to really say except I moving this blog to a more personal level while still keeping it public. I think it will become a constructive way to vent without having to worry about what people I may or may not be writing about feel.