Springfest

So today is Springfest here at Allegheny College - a whole day where people attempt to get as drunk, high and drugged up as they possibly can. And here I am settled into a nest at the top of the library watching people stumble by at 3:20pm. It is a bit sad to think that these are representatives of our future. But then again the vast majority of them are responsible enough not to hurt themselves and others. Last night was my second night out of my room to allow my roommate to have his boyfriend over. I always wonder if my feelings towards allowing such things is because of how I feel about the relationship or due to my own mixed feelings on my singleness. But I guess I cannot blame others for my own misfortune and unattractiveness. But I am who I am and I will not change for any person. If gay guys don't like a strong willed, political and feminist boyfriend then it sucks for them because I will not sacrifice my core values for another's convenience. And I guess that scares a lot of guys of - since I force them to think about issues that they otherwise couldn't care less about. But I don't want a guy afraid of confrontation, a challenge, a struggle... I want one that will stand up for what he believes in, who will stand besides me in life as a true partner.
But I guess those guys only exist in fairytales... Alas I wish I lived in that fairytale.